meaningful work

I want to find meaningful work.  Work that has meaning for me, but still pays the bills.  I love textiles.  I've done weaving, tie dye, batik.  At the moment I do small quilt / applique collage pieces.  I have a BFA in Fiber Arts.  I've worked as a tapestry weaver.  I've worked in libraries and have a Masters in Library Science.  I currently work in retail.  Of all the jobs I've had, the current one is the one I've enjoyed the most. The focus is so much on customer service and there's a true sense of everyone pulling together to serve the customer.   I really enjoy that aspect of it.  It's also a business that sells textiles for the home, which I also enjoy. 

At the moment, my job combines many things that I love.  Helping people, textiles, organizing and keeping track of items.   Most interactions with customers are short and simple.  Dealing with people is always taxing for me even when I enjoy it.  It's always been something that drains instead of energizes me. 

Arranging things energizes me, whether it's organizing and sorting items, putting up displays at the store or collaging my fabric squares. 

I'm Buddhist and constantly look for ways to bring compassion and wisdom into my life.  At the moment the place where my spirituality is coming thought the most is in my fabric collage.

I've been involved with various Buddhist groups, but often reach a point where the group dynamics overwhelm me.  Where I work, there are rules in place and the focus is so much on the customer, it keeps things in check. 

I feel like I've had good work experiences, but I've made little headway in finding something I truly enjoy and pays the bills.  I think my fears and anxieties get the better of me and I stop before I even start.